some_kinda_hope

for all who reside in the allentown area youll already know what im talking about, but for those few of you who arent and dont, a few days ago there was an accident where a cop crashed and killed a four year old boy. im not entrily sure of what exactly happened, but what ive gotten from this is that there was a guy on the east side of the city with a shot gun, and two unmarked cop cars were hurrying over and as they turned the corner on 7th and chew they collided, and one of them, one who has been on the force less than a year, ended up crashing into this little boy, and from some stories, his car ended up actually splitting the boy in half. his mother was hurt as well, and her boyfriend was in critical condition for a while.

it was a horrible accident, and i know that this man cant be feeling good about this, if i were him id wish i had died instead, and im sure hes wishing the same thing. but rather than mourning like a community should, the night of the accident a group of people began rioting, demanding the cop be fired and jailed and God knows what else. how many of these people really cared about this small boy and his family? how many of them considered the agony the officer must be going through as well? im willing to bet none, or very few.

it disgusts me to be in a place where people will take advantage of such a horrific situation to complain about the government and so called police corruptment and who knows what else. why cant people simply accept that this was a horrible, tragic accident, and then.... let it go? no, i dont expect people to simply forget this, my god if they did id really have no faith left in mankind, but to attack this man for trying to do his job? if anyone is to be blamed, its the man who decided that would be a good night to walk the streets with a shotgun, with who knows what intention? if he had decided to go on a killing spree, the people would want to know why the police didnt do anything to prevent it. they are only human, what do you want from them? how much do you expect a mortal man to do? accept that we are a weak creature, and that we cannot avoid every trouble and accident, that as much as we may wish we could, we cannot prevent all these horrible things that happen in this world. rather than point the finger and place the blame on an innocent man, look to the reason why this really happened. look to the people who go out with guns and knives and suicide bombs, these people whos intentions are to hurt and kill other people, innocent people. we look around us, we watch the news, read the papers, think of how horrible this is, but we do nothing. we expect other people to take care of the problem for us, but get angry when something happens that was uncontrolable. why werent we protected? why did you make a mistake? how could you possibly make an error?

do people seriously believe this man deserves to lose his job? i can guarentee you that he is feeling far worse about this than any person out rioting that night. everytime people react to something horrible like this, in an equally horrible manner, i lose a little more faith, i die a little bit more. this is the reason why there are so many suicides in this country. how can anything else be expected when a person looks around him or herself and sees this world we live in? when you look to your left and see a murderer, a child molester, a rapist, and you look to your right and find an instigator, a rioter, a careless, selfish hypocrite, what reason can you find for wanting to stay in this world? the only reason im even alive now is because i got lucky, im one of the obviously very few people who have found God, and He is my reason for living. as much as id like to say i live for my friends, thats not entirely the case. God gave them to me so that i would have an earthly comfort, but so often i find i dont have those comfrots available to me, so i have no choice but to fall back on Him. if i didnt... id be gone.

i find its usually the same people who like to blame problems on the wrong people are typically the ones wanting to know where God has been through all of this.

you want to know where Hes been?

you really want to know where Hes been?

Hes been by your side. Hes been along side every child, every mother, every father, brother and sister. Hes been by you, and Hes been by me. but why didnt He stop this young boy from dying? where was He as this boy was struck? perhaps He chose to spare him from the world weve corrupted so badly. perhaps He was holding young Daviays hand as he left this world and went to his true Father. perhaps He was holding this child as he left this world, and welcomed him to his true home, the one that the rest of will have to wait to see, that some of us regretably will never see.

i feel for daviays mother, i really do, i can understand her pain and agorny, but what i cannot understand and refuse to condone is the reactions of these people who act so disgustingly not out of sorrow or pity, love or affection, but rather out of outrage and hate.

i can only pray and ask God to comfort her and her family through this time, and shed my own tears for this tragedy. i dont know why this has affected me so much, but im not going to question it. perhaps this is the beginning of the answers to my own prayers and pleas. it seems to be answering a few questions of my own to God.

dont pray for Daviay. he has regretably died, but most likely in heaven with the only person who could love him as he deserves to be loved. instead pray for the people who truly need it. his mother, family, and the men who were forced to take part in this tragic event.